Littlest things make life Great

3.11

2009-11-02T18:44:00.000-08:00

I wake up at a timing of 7 30.

Early isn'it.

This days are hard for me.

Friendship affairs dragged my emotions down.

I know I'll definitely lose everything someday.

It doesn't belongs to me.

Everything just illusion.

People and things are just way too realistic.

The day finally is here.

I'm not hiding from it.

Yer, I'm glad it come early.

Make me look clearly.

Nehmind if i lose everything.

Hope i have the will power to restart.

I can be faking.

You don't have to and

will never understand me.

Fact

2009-10-30T09:01:00.000-07:00

Whatever things happen, let nature take it course.
Remember don't look at the thing now, you have to look further.
Take everything is a bless.
Your life will go on and continue on is way.
Remember, in this world, nobody is reliable to anyone.
And you'll never be reliable to anybody too.

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2009-10-03T02:25:00.000-07:00

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i'm speechless.

Messy..

2009-05-04T06:58:00.000-07:00

My life is all messed up..

it went to the wrong path...

i can't help it..

went to TTS hospital for my operation..

it is pain, but i watch it all the way,

somehow, i feel excited.

and i told the doctor i'm scared of other ppl's blood,

he laughed, and tell me that normally ppl will scared f their own blood..

i'm unique isn't it..

anw, this mid year exams gonna be very 难看..

i mean my result..

sighs.

i did not put in any effort..

but still, hope, god bless me.....

Untitled

2009-04-07T06:34:00.000-07:00

I was very fed up.
Nobody understand my feelings.
Nobody seems to care too.
I'm not in the wrong okay, indeed, i'm the pathetic one.
yet, you still ask me that way.
it brokes my heart.
I act as nothing had happen, but does it really not a matter to me?
NO..
Is not.
Nobody is trying to look at my heart, though it is open now.
fine. i shall close it..

2009-03-26T08:36:00.000-07:00

The kind of the feeling that i had now is....
Totally sucks..
I have no life.
Is a kind of tourture now.
Why things have to turn out this way...
why..

Turning point

2009-03-21T01:22:00.000-07:00

I love my family!

My family make me known that i'm not forgetten.

The day i was born.

Even though is real small matter here.

I know by the fact that i made is abit..

but is okay,

as long as they know.

i know.

Hopefully i'll be happy.

But why i'm i here still feeling.....

Liquid dieting

2009-03-13T11:10:00.000-07:00

I'm sick.
how can it be possible.
sigh.
and i've been liquid dieting for 2, going to 3 days alrdy.
become sick squea.
must dahan this period.
must get ride of the stupid title in class.

坚持就是胜利 oh man.

My Destiny

2009-03-09T07:38:00.000-07:00

I safely reach home with my three pairs of new shoes.
Teehee~:]
within 1 min, i'm blogging. -,-
okay, nevermind.
is have had been so long since i post.
this blog is dead. -.-

anw, when i first step out of the bus,
tears circling around my eyes.
is sad..... and it has been twice since i hear that.
is like tear the scar from the newly recoverd wound.
but my dear, don't feel that i'm faking or seeking for attention, or is trying to get some pity from you.
indeed, i'm not.
i think i was making the corret choice.
even though i'm not that NOBEL.
but, but, is one part of my thoughts.
....

A boodle OX of PHOTO!

look at my perfect consellor face.

wonder why got ppl say i dont look alike..

My handsome handsome dearest! heart.

The beauty of darkness. [Mainly c.r.a.p]

SIGHS, the poor bird.

i cant save your life.

but i did try my best.

RIP.

i'll curse that bloody black bully bird.

This is call flood..

It worth 10 bucks?!

Skin food product is not cheap.

but is good.

that mask cost me 12 bucks. -.-

BO LUI ALDRY LAH!

Secretly taken when the dentist is doing his stuff.

pro right!

2009-02-22T04:12:00.000-08:00

I had enough of the emoness.
Go away form my life if you can hear me!
Stoppppp emoing!
Roars!
i never never study for any of my exam. My CT..
:{{{
anw, i feel i'm so unpopular in the class of E1.. sighs.
nevormind, nevormind.

がんばってがんばって!

失败太多次,你就知道自己不会再有成功的时候了

2009-02-19T04:50:00.000-08:00

Once you had too much of failer experience,
you will know that you'd never have sucess again.
Is't it ture?

Life is miserable.

If ever i have had a chance

2009-02-17T01:41:00.000-08:00

I tried my best, i can just wait for the response.
You seem too far, too oppositive.
it make me cowardice.
sheepishly make me want to run away from reality.
i can see the answer without you speaking.
with all that i'm feeling now, i should be escaping.
but i'm sorry. i could not stop.
My heart is leading me to the wrong path, i can't help it either..

有一种爱还埋藏在我心中

2009-02-15T13:56:00.000-08:00

Two hours ago, i realised something.
i think i'm not that late for the news.
that is the things kept me awake untill now.
i cant sleep the whole night.
i'm feeling complicated.

About three things i was absolutely positive.
First, you are coming back into my heart.
Second, i know all the impossibles between my thoughts and the reality.
And third, you are so far from me. I'm with my vain hope my foolish idea.

i guess you loved her..
i don't wan't to be fake my thought that i wish you two back together.
NO, i don't want...
i only hope you'll not be sad.
hope you will go through it smoothly. hope you will be happy soon.
i know is pointless still...
but due to human complexity, i'm acting this way.
sighs.

if all that i can do, to make you notice me...
oh god, please give some hint.
i'm silly. you would never fall for me in any circumstance.
today is just like the past year.
sadness flow through out me.

i know i'm talking to the air.
i couldn't make up my mind.
but if i were to choose to bant down my pride, will you accept?

我以为我放下了. 我以为我忘记了.
我以为喜欢另外一个人就会不一样了.
但.我只是在催眠自己. 隐藏自己的想法.
其实我,放不下　也忘不了.

离不开你不是我要的选择

i find myself denying.
Oh gosh! i'm so changeable!
sighs

Pain past is pleasure?!

2009-02-05T00:40:00.000-08:00

(....)
i cry is not because of being cheated of money!
you don't understand then please don't make any conclusion.
i don't like ppl talking the untrue.
esp when someone don't really talked to me often hear the comments,
they'll think and then somehow the thing is heard by me,
i clearify but due to the "not close" relationship,
i believe even if i repeat 100 of times,
you may still misunderstood. therefore,
i don't see a need of tell you everythings.
and maybe we are not close enough to let you hear my nonsences.
i don't want to bore you.
but actually, maybe, perhaps. there is no one is close with me.
i know my post is an anti-social act. too bad. is the inconvinent truth.
and to the bloody manager!
you can just dig a hole and buried yourself. you are so bad.
so BU FU ZE REN! GTH! -.-

i mood bad bad! :{{{

We are "together" -.-

2009-01-29T03:26:00.000-08:00

fuckfuckfuck.
is new year,
yet, i'm like this.
i don't like the number of 4.
ANGRY ANGRY.
sad sad.
ZZZZZZZZ

CAUTION. Heavy image

2009-01-22T04:35:00.000-08:00

i hated you, in heart.
you left me here alone and enjoy your life.
yes, i'm not a nobal person that i said.
now you are not the one, i'm seem to be the one.
you should be happy!
i shall not talk about you.
what is the past, is past.

Ima lazy to blog, so let the photos tell the story!
Let's start with a BUS BREAKDOWN.

Sorry. too zi lian alr

funny right.. hahas. x: shhhhh

my b.friend gave me this. shy~

LOVE it much!

Do they look alike?
my son is adorable~
shyy.*><*

FORCED TO SMILE. heehee

A diao- face.

i make this octopus!

pro right! ^^

BOTAK forehead... so weird.

BELOVED cha sui bao

anw, today i saw K.. I bet he saw me too!

he look still the same!

cool man!

我们在错的时间相遇,在对的时候却又分开 even though i see this sentence at other's blog, but i like it alot.

哪一个才是真实的自我..失望还是假想

2009-01-14T08:05:00.000-08:00

Life is so much different now.
still don't have the chance to talk to anynody.
i'm stuck!
who can lend me a thousands of listening ear?

SIGHS. :{{{{{

Docter Jingwei is here!

2009-01-10T22:06:00.000-08:00

Ima lazy to blog.

but due to promised. i shall blog something.
Jing wei beauty tips is here..
muaa.. ahah...ah.
sound crap, but it will be a helping line to somebody.
you know i-m talking about you!
^^
today topic is "acne"-it is somethings like pimple, but is not exactly the same
How did it start to grow.

Is before girl girl stuff come

Your liver and those organ having some qureall, and constipation

Mentally stress, or over stress and lacking of sleep. etc.

Eat too oily&spicy food which is known as ci ji de food, and swee dessert.

and for the external part,

Improper of cleaning, which make the blockage of pore and caused bacterial infection

Itch handed nor, anyhow go squezz the pimples and dig. then bacterial infection lah!

Use low quality make up, such as foundation

Lastly, and you know i heat it very very much.

Ultraviolet radiation and other chemical substance.

For you, hmmm, i think maybe because the sun burn and not enough of sleep. then everytime see chiobu-nose bleed too much and constipation. hahas. not good not good!

Prevention and cure

want t see this the most right, i knew it!

Internal

Inflammation treatment, to kill the bacteria.

Chinese medical treatment

Eat more vegi to prevent constipation

Keep your mood high and pay more attention on your diet and rest well

External

Keep your skin healthy, let your pore breath and if possible, do some treatment, no matter is at home or salon!

Try not to squezz it using hand

Using less make up, esp foudation.

防晒

Okay, try to get your oxy 5 and maybe at night put some aleo vera to kill the bacteria and it can reduce the redness of the acne. And try to get a toner? put it in the frige! apply the toner on a cotton pad and apply on face after cleansing. It wont caused any blockage of pore and can inflammation your skin! then, put a face lotion or cream, if your face is oily type, use the lotion one. and then your oxy 5 or whatever thing nar! For go out hor, must put SUNBLOCK! SPF 15 to 30 is enough alr. If you can, and you dont think is very niang, then one week do one mask to give your skin a better condition.

hahas, i write alot HOR,

super touching RIGHT...

how you wanna thank me AH~

hohoho, just kidding, but must make your skin back to normal la,

if not, later L and J and W dont like you alr.

haha..;p

2008-12-12T09:32:00.000-08:00

Watched the Twilight movie..

Yum yum, is a nice movie!

GO WATCH GO WATCH.

Worth the ticket, the price!

don't see a need to blog about anything le..

2008-12-08T09:37:00.000-08:00

我努力的想哭泣,却哭不出泪滴,.

一次又一次的灰心,才发现早已麻痹.

终于发现自己.已经不在乎你,原来分离也能如此安宁.

RANDOM...

2008-12-01T11:33:00.000-08:00

I WANNA WATCH TWILIGHT THE MOVIE SO DAMN BADLY.

which kind soul wanna bring me to watch?
T.T
Okay , done whining.
oh gosh,
TWILIGHT.TWILIGHT.TWILIGHT.TWILIGHT. i'm obsessed.

2008-11-26T22:51:00.000-08:00

Moshi moshi! i'm back! I only remember drink quite alot that day. but talk very less. I find it meaningless. Everythings is just to hocus ourself or is our luxary demand? Yepp. i agree with large extent. I'm still nothing, not worth a star nor a heart.

For this two weeks, i've gotta somethings to say.
To me, there is no such words as ''not bad'' or '' quite well''.
No matter what i do/done, all is not good, my fault, my bad.
Even though i do my best is still a wrong.
I cant reach anyone's expectation. Always.

Used to thought the world is beautiful, people treat me well, i take it as behove, is 理所当然.
到现在才明白, 那些好是那么的难能可贵的,只可惜,现在,一切都成为了遗失的美好.想回到过去,想知道如果当时懂得去珍惜,故事到现在会是有怎样的发展,怎样的结局.那些人,那些事都变的好象天上的星星一样,触手不及.它们也都成为了往事..

我怀念从前... 是因为我太留恋...

2008-11-04T20:22:00.000-08:00

went to the clinic again yesterday.
hmmm,
because that dumb dumb hand,
i suffered alot and spent alot..

run away and cry...

SAYANG WANTED LAH DEY!!

2008-11-02T04:26:00.000-08:00

Finally done with my blogskin,
sighs. tired sio bodoh..=.=
so long since last post,
one sentence can describe 最近很多事情发生.
somehow, bad luck angel love me more..
and cause lots unwanted stuffs happen..

我不开心我不开心我不开心
我不开心我不开心我不开心
我不开心我不开心我不开心

and
I don't want I don't want I don't want I don't want
I don't want I don't want I don't want I don't want
I don't want I don't want I don't want I don't want
I don't want I don't want I don't want I don't want

U.U
now, the wound is still with me
will it be disappear soon? i've no idea
is about one month since i last eat CHICKEN & SEAFOOD.
stupid right, i know. x:
my piercing. my friend. my happy hour. my laughter. my joker ability.
my family. my work. my cheerfulness. my happiness. my sunshine.
my rainbow. my outing. my shoe.
全都消失了,
属于我的东西全都慢慢不见了..没有人要和我玩..
when will be my bad days gone and good days come?
hope my hand will recover soon,
i wan work and earn money! make me forget everythings PLEASE!

我知道是我不够好所以你才想要逃

The following content may cause distraction,

so if you are unwell or if you are eating,

stop or prepared to puke.

2008-10-22T13:20:00.000-07:00

My piercing..
SIGHHHH~
such a sad story..
haiii. i know is mine business.
BUTwanyu, jess, yao jun, zhe lun, linda.
you all must pay a little bit of ze ren!
sob sob, so sad~ T.T

2008-10-19T12:55:00.000-07:00

KUN POH KUN BIAO lah you!

you say me diam, so now i'm here to show you what DIAM means!

if i want talk is your turn to DIAM!

just stop all the bullshiting and fuck off can???!!!!!

pandi is pig,

naiiiii is female dog!

i very nice to teach you some indian words,

as you may dunno what JESSICA talking about and you may need it to introduce yourself!

btw, JESSICAOTEX means jessica ong ting en! NOOBY.

among kenny cafe, who dunno her!

SERIOUSLY I'M TIRED,

AND I HAD ALREADY SAID WORLD PEACE,

what do you want.

ARE YOU BLIND?

OR JUST GO BUY ANOTHER NEW PAIR OF CONTACT LENSE!

pajiao

sorry, i am really dulan.

thks!

for your information. visit; www.jessicaotex.blogspot.com

and thks _ for the msg.

exam is over!

enjoy your NS!

smiles smiles

2008-10-12T21:07:00.000-07:00

you dun like you can just go away,
who the one start everythings de, IS YOUR FRIEND!
she then write dabian de hor, you ask her write down what i do lah, see what i do!
i dragging you in, i so free to do this?!
the things is about we! is WE! NOT ME!
she write then i rebark de,
i dun wan to bear silently with the untrue!
what backstabber! =.=
who the fish said that my feeling wont fade so easily then the second day is totally in a opppsite way.
does a friend do this?
OKAY, ppl says you are bu jian dan,
so i dun wan to interact with you or what!
and seriously, why she writing about me!
and last post wher got you!
you open your eyes big big also can!
i write painted skin!
if you said older post!
i nv even write anything about you hor!
MY BUSINESS! MY FRIEND!

my things dun need you to concern or to discuss.
i treat ppl how they treat me,
you, doesn't even.... dotdotdot,
ironicly, as if we are friend.
as if you all so care about me!
K is past tense,
SHE IS dragging back!
EVERYONE IS PAST TENSE!
i really dunno why things turn out this way,
related to any him is so tired,
i dun wish to be anythings related to him anymore, any longer,
just leave me alone!

anw, you can write whatever you want, my tag board is used to tag de,
i dun mind you write, it doesn't hurt me or harm me in any ways ! :D

FOR THE SAKE OF LKY,
i stop here!
and i sure will smile through this thing de.
maybe i'm more immature in your mind,
but, 我不管了.
okay, my wish...

WORLD PEACE! :]

2008-10-04T22:54:00.001-07:00

okay, whatever it is, hope you will be responsible for you own words,
even though i dun really know what happen and what makes you think that i'm so called the person in your post..

ky nv leaves me and pls! he nv leave me for another person...
WE NEVER BE TOGETHERED!
i cut not becos he is with somebody, is just my feelings my mood makes me upset!
tears is precious but i dun believed if any girls in such situation will be alright, will be fine!
not like what you said,he did care,
yet i am not stopping form what i was doing that time,
yes! i'm foolish, but love is foolish, dun tell me you dunno,
yes! i cant let it go! this is my personality, you cant change it!
but so what, as long as i'm doing the right things and i nv go disturb cass!

i'm not those kind of slurt who interfering other's relationship.
indeed, i did not do anythings..
my only post write about them was the time i know that she dumbed him..(sorry ky) that all!
what i interfered about them! you tell me!
i'm curious, tell me about what i did to interfered about them okay!

and your post Sunday, September 21, 2008,
i dunno why you suddently posted it.
becos i have not write anythings related to ky after the post i write fair well to him which is September 13, 2008..
other post all is other stuffs, did you misunderstand?

and for self harming.

i used to have this "problem".
so not becos of him, then i start cutting myself.
and i dun asked for pity or commiserate,
fine, you'll say ppl cut becos they wan attention.
but did i get the "attention" that (you think) i wanted?
ironicly, i only get broken friendship and ppl's dislikes...
yeah, this is what i get, so you think i'm so stupid till do all this to make ppl dislike me?!
they dun even give me second chance, so why the hell i do to make them feel this way or is just my problems to cut?!
now i can tell you my defination of blogging,
i used it to write out my feelings and record down my life. is my thought,
you dun have to look at it or you dun have to exposed to other's..
what the used to tell other's i have cut and post it in internet.
i nv force you to see, or to tell everyone.

am i desperate? you make me think of yvonne,
you know what, you are just like her.. but one is wb and one is ky..
mayb yvonne is not those kind, but you must understand!
now, your acts are just like her. and befor what bad things you said about her are just refered to yourself. true! what goes around comes around!

you dun understand me nor know me, what things make you so confident to write about me.
hahas, funny, dun be too pride of yourself,
you are only a same age girl as me, you not likely to know more, you not likely to be mature than me,
what the popose you writing the post? why! what do you really wan seriously!

To harm me, to calumniate, slandered me?
perhaps you wanting to see i harm myslef again? now i can tell you,
YES, i'm sad/depressed/upset/ sorrowful/grieved/anything you can think of..
but not angry like what you said..
i wont so easily get down by anyone, and i wont harm myself as you might wish to see...
i nv ask anybody to judget me. even have, absolutely not you! you have no right to judget me or misjudget me..
everything is my business,,, mind you!
your exam is near, study is more important!

this time i'm very sure that i'm not the faulty!
not i finding problem.
if you wanted to be like this, i'll pei ni dao di!
Actually i cared, but i'll not give a damn to you or anyone again!
if i wish to work at sakae, i'll still go!

Confront me if you feels that above texts are bullshit!

2008-10-02T01:09:00.000-07:00

歌曲：稻香
歌手：周杰伦
专辑：摩杰座

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什么人要这么的脆弱堕落
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好
不要这黱容易就想放弃
就像我说的
追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了
 为自己的人生鲜艳上色
先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机
现在终於飞回我手里
所谓的那快乐
赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了
谁在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著风唱著歌睡著了
哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好☆
稻香.☆^-^☆.

2008-10-01T22:24:00.000-07:00

watched painted skin.

after maths 1

we stright away went to Jurong East.

first show was 10:35,

lol, i felt guilty

exams period haven over and i'm there to enjoy

>:
the show is nice!

i dun find it draggy or what so ever,
but some part still scary,
i mean for me this kind of old lady.
:x
anw, i find it very meaningful,
L.O.V.E.
what this thing meant to ghost and human.
dotdotdot..
watch yourself and you'll be able to understand!
i nearly cry lo..
i'm a wriedo...+_+

人世间，谁都逃不过情这一关..

《画皮》剧情简介：
　　影片根据中国古典名著《聊斋志异》改编。
　　秦汉年间，都尉王生率王家军在西域与沙匪激战中救回一绝色女子，并带回江都王府。不想此女乃"九霄美狐"小唯披人皮所变。其皮必须用人心养护，故小唯的隐形助手小易--一只沙漠蜥蜴修成的妖，每隔几天便杀人取心供奉小唯，以表对小唯的爱意，江都城因此陷入一片恐怖中。小唯因王家军首领王生勇猛英俊对其萌生爱意，并不停用妖术诱惑王生，想取代王生妻子佩蓉的地位。
　　佩蓉发现小唯爱恋自己的丈夫，并觉察到她不是常人，于是暗中求助武功高强的流浪侠客庞勇和冰清玉洁的降魔者夏冰救助王生……
　　自此，一场人妖之间，人伦之间，纯情男女之间，兄弟之间，妖魔之间错综复杂的情仇、诱惑、陷害、抗争和生死大战徐徐拉开。结局惨烈而出乎意料……

Jay Chou's new song is 稻香
support support!
:]
cant wait for october 9!

MY LIFE

2008-09-26T02:56:00.000-07:00

Actually nth much to blog.
but i shall still squezz some words bah
life is bored,
is busy with exams,,
nvm, exam is over soon.
hmmm, history was a disaster.
just hope i can pass,
el was okay okay, suppose?!
chinese is easy i think,
i dunno why when others think is easy,
i think is difficult,
then i think normal, ppl all think is hard..
lol..
i'm totally in anxious!
my maths!
sighhhh,
dun wan to talk about it.
even only left 3 days,
i must study hard and lin shi bao fo jiao.
must tolerate with everythings,
is for my own good..
:/
anw, life are gonna to continue with MYSELF only.

gambateh jingwei!
you can do it,
come on, is not that hard.

:]

stupid but fun
Forget the date,but we are all play in the counselling room..
very fun! :}}}}}

IS THEY LOVE TO TAKE PICTURES, NOT ME LAH DEY!
I'M INNOCENT! SOB
what i doing sio,
raping the two bear bear><
shit! wher is me in the left one!?
grrrrr~ the right one so ugly....=.=
My pandi leader! love you! even though,,, dot dot..

i dunno why, but when i with you all, my smile were shown...

this was another day de,,,
can you see the star?
is beautiful! *make wish*

zingdo is not nice.
serious man!
1.5/5
only the korean chiili nice

life w/o contactlense....>: sad lah dey

hahas~

seriously such a watse trip.
stupid!!!===..===
is funny, all my finger were out when i try to wear wy's shoe?

random!!

one singing competition.one person per 35 bucks sia... lol

i wan watch this one...
anyone interested?
:}

2008-09-16T06:31:00.000-07:00

no one would know what i am thinking
i know i'm stupid
get emotional every now and then,
and so easily so fleetness.
i'm starting behave weird,
not talking to ppl,
a fit of bad temper,
seriously, i'm GETTING ILL!
an outburst of emotion
i try not to be like this,
but i cant,
i dun mean to spoil everybody's mood
and i know they dun have to tolerate with me
maybe i'm really think too much or
should say now getting emoier.
i know i will lamented my thoughtless acts,
i know i will lost something, somebody this time round.
but, life is undulate, have rise and fall
i must accepted it!
maybe the things or the person dun mean to be with me in my life,
or they just a passer by of me or i'm the outsider
i wont constrain
i dun wish to scrambling along and struggle
just let it be..
i cant forced myself to smile anymore.
let natural take it course,
who leave who stay got any different???
and
I AM NOT inadequate
I AM MATURE enough to wrote down my thoughts
so dun judget me!
maybe now i should fouces on my studies more,
maybe this will help me to shift my attention from the stupid things.
=.=
i hate emo!
hope my unbalanced state of affections will dribble away.

LASTLY, i wanna have some entertainment!

her face look weird, but, use this smile, laugh always!

Wafiyah pich my face!

LOOK! jessica that +_+ dunno what face..

=.=

KUNGFU PANDA!

WY dunno what face!

-.-

i'm a WEIRDO!

SM look like monkey? :x

how wy eat the sushi~ *puke puke*

and now let me present,
!PHOTO OF THE YEAR!

Tahhhhh

Dahhhhh!

CLAP CLAP! HI FIVE JESSICA ONG TING EN

2008-09-12T11:30:00.000-07:00

FAREWELL my friend.. WODEAI
REMEMBER TO PUT SUN BLOCK WHEN YOU IN THE CAMP!
THEIR IS A HIGH CHANCE OF GETTING SKIN CANCER
SO NEED NOT CARE WHAT OTHERS THINK LUHS!
AND ALSO BECAUSE...ILOVEYOU
this post also dedicate to you,
but i think, my one more meaningful than your one.
probably you cant see this post?
you will be getting darker or black! XD
i will call you blackie pimple face,
andand, you said friend forever,
you better mean it wor!
otherwise chop you to make mooncake.
but hor, who knows you might regret someday?
haha, lol.
joking!
even though this is not what i wanted or what i wished.
but as long as you are happy.
and i think i'm just day dreaming here,
you will nv,,
sighh, why i'm i emo here?
yes, probably a new girl appear in your life,
i'm nth agn..
i'm...
nope, i'm not crying..
haha...
seriously, cant wait to see ur blackie pimple face,
kan ni hai gan bu gan shuo, is't i'm the white one...
LOL..
darker! darker! DARKER!
curse you!
and dun be cry baby tomorrow ahr!
so old liao still behave like a child,
haiiyo, comfirm tears drop on your bag de lo..
but shud be glad,
you finally get to know how important you meant to your family
and friends,
so dun get emo everytime!

BYE BYE!

qin ai de, ni jiu yao li kai,

wo zhen de hen she bu de.

sui ran, ni cong bu shu yu wo.

wo ye cong lai mei you yong you guo ni.

dan shi ni ming bai wo de xin mah?

dui ni ai ai ai bu wan,

ye xu zhi you shi jian ke yi rang wo wang ji,

rang wo shi huai!

再见了,孤独的热气球

RESTLESS NIGHT

SIGH

2008-09-11T07:01:00.000-07:00

i dunno what i'm thinking now..
what really mean to me?
what matter to me?
sky seem falling,
rainbow seem colourless,
sun shone without light,
raindrop are bitter,
star doesn't seem bright,
幸福对我而言是个可怕的回忆
回忆也已经是遥不可及的了
它们只是一个的传说

2008-09-07T10:00:00.000-07:00

watched KING KONG agn..
i cried!
is not because of my moodswing thing,
is just i'm touched.
WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE.
he is just, only a big size animal, a creature.
he eats BAMBOO okay..
why you all must put him to death..
he, died for Ann..
i, cried for his fearless love..

2008-09-05T11:51:00.000-07:00

我没事!
seriously i'm okay lah dey,
muahaha.

i cant,
i'm nt happy at all.
but this is not your fault.
actually, i hated you say sorry.
is really not your fault,
我想要的,不是你可以给的,
或许应该是,不是你想要给我的,
你能给的,却不是我想要拥有的,
但是你不快乐我也不会快乐,
又或许,我会比你更不快乐
同样的,我也给不了你要的
所以我更加希望你能快乐

i'm stupid.
so i learned the hard way,
i'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
my heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole at the start
you should have known better than to lean on me
you never thought of anyone else than..
you just saw your pain and now i cry
in the middle of the night
over the same damn thing
i tried my hardest just to forget everything
but i can't
i'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
i am afraid.....

2008-09-02T11:00:00.000-07:00

ma jing wei hates pretending.
yet she cant escape from it.

i cant believed that i was crying.
yes, cant deny, i believe i would cry over it.
is just that everythings was bottle up.
nw, maybe,
crying is the way blow off my repressed emotion
perhaps it help or is just getting worst.

what's wrong with you!
can you be like more clear minded,
qing xing yi dian,
stop dreaming.
you are just too foolish/dumb/stupid/clumsy/idoitic/lacking intelligence
whatever you can think of..
what you still thinking?
you think you two can still be super duper good friend agn?
like befor?
you think you can cheer him up now?
you think you can help him?
you think your lame conversation will make him not so down?
you think he treat you as a friend?
you are jus a nobody .
stop lying to yourself.
for the every possible think made by yourself
whih was just a basket of dead hope,
or should i say just all my insubstantial.
how long already?
you still have this kind of thoughts.

love is NOT colorblind.
why you are so kind to her?
isn't she the one should be blamed?
isn't she break up with the one for you and
nw she is breaking up with you for him?
isn't she the betrayer?
isn't she break your heart?
SHE ratted on YOU.
what the used you still blame on yourself!
what the used of loving her so much still?
does she reli becos of wanting bu chang him then leave you?

离开你她需要理由吗?
她可以找出一千个一万个理由说分手,
你也愿意傻傻的相信?
难道这就是你所谓的爱,
你错了,
爱情不是盲目的,
你可以清醒一点吗?!
不要再伤心难过了可不可以,
2个月就真的是天长地久?
这个社会,你还相信天长地久这种东西吗?
还相信承诺这种说过就可以忘记的东西吗?
你还相信永远吗?
你太天真了..
i konw i've no right to say all this,
this just my opinion,
and, somehow i think is fact.
sighhh.
i dunno what mood or feel when i typing all this..
hate or love?
or nth.
the only thing i can told is,
you are just too cruel to me.
you are right, you wil say all this i do is dun wan give you false hope,
but look at yourself, what you are doing now huh.
did you ever give me a sorry or a concern..
when the time i'm at the cliff,
you push me down to the bottom,
you said we are still friend,
ironic.
all is my problems,

爱的流浪迷失方向被时间埋葬(被月光埋葬)
在爱情的旅程当中穿寻着寻找真爱,
可是迷失了方向,渐渐的,
时间已经把我的记忆掩埋,
惆怅的月光也已经盖住了我的思念,
一切的一切,
让我忘却曾经的真爱,
this is what my of understanding...

sighh, i dunno what i typing for.
what the use man.
just waste my time for writing such post.
nth gonna change.
my life will go on,
and your life of missing her will go on
but no matter what,
i wish you happy,
wish you have a emo-free life ever.
writing this post.
i'm prepared for death..
what will happen i dunno,
but what things still mattered nw?
forget it.
i'm rotting..
and.
are ther anybody could understang?
yes, *rise up hand*

mayb the person is me,myself & i.
or maybe even me, myself & i also dun understand..
tonight is a restless night,
what about tomorow?
i dun dare to think.
hope everythings ended here.
sorry ky for writing this post,
sorry,
i guess i may hurt you by my stupid thoughts agn,
i'm useless,
but i can't bottle this up anymore,
if i nv expose it out,
i dunno what will happen to me,
or you shud just start hate me, ignore me,
i'll accept everythings.
and i am pled everythings to change for your happiness,
haiz,
sound fake,
when some ppl see this post,
they sure will overstate or exaggerate.
as i said, i'm prepared for death,
dun see the need to contact those ppl anymore,
i'm just the passing traveller to them,
just hope you guys wont exaggerate this post too much
i am profoundly grateful.

i shall end this meaningless post here.
goodbye everybody!
have a sweet dream.

good night!

omg,
i swear i was writing this post before i see his new post. grrrrr,
how come just nw i nv seen it..
if i seen it, i wouldn't write this..
haiii,
dun feel like delete it,
as it was still my thoughts.
and i can hi five with him le,'
爱情是盲目的.
we actually wrote the same thing.
lol. perhaps i need a sorry for you still!

2008-08-30T21:48:00.000-07:00

moodless..
她离开你身边,
你又在谁身边..
你还在爱?
我又是否该继续?

2008-08-25T19:23:00.000-07:00

I'm the victim!

today after recess,

went up to the second floor toilet.

the handicap cupicle.

actually it was lock-less,

i was wonder weather they got mantain it

then i kehpok kehpok want go check,

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

a malay girl was inside!

oh my tian!

she is sitting down ther,

her skirt was drop on the floor..

oh my BOY!

as if i'm watching PORNAGRAPHY..

Feel like being molested!

nt phisically!

is mentally!

i need to see the psychlogy.!

2008-08-25T05:52:00.000-07:00

毁坏的沙雕如何重盖
有裂痕的爱怎么重来
只是一切结束太快
我无法释怀

i'm individual now
no body need bother me anymore..
just leave me behind..
everyone, everything seem so un-stable,
seem so 善变.
i'm weak this time agn,
i will cry, indeed, i cried don't matter where
no matter when.
the lies were just repeated.
i've lose in this friendship game,
over agn.
i am left with no bet.
no more bet how to continue the game?
i share just quit this game right now.
i'll go my own way..
is hard to accept,
is hard to walking alone without cry,
is hard to control my emotional,
is hard to forget.
but the hardest things is i dunno how to accept it,
adapt it or re-start it.
yah,
I KNOW I'M NOT THE VICTIM OR
THE ONE WHO GIVE OUT THE MOST.
ALL THIS CRAP DOESN'T MEAN ANYTHING!
Everythings will over soon,
everythings will be alright
:}
anw, WELCOME TO THE BIKINI BOTTOM,
i own the crapy pattie restaurant..

fucking group is just another lie

2008-08-24T10:00:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LKY..

who will i run to?!

lonely..

just like that..

the flower is wither

2008-08-17T08:29:00.000-07:00

i feel lost..
everythings goes wrongly,
nt a single thing was what i wanted.
what everything mean?
who wil reli be my side?
dun believe in miracle, forever and promise..
alcohol jus cant numb my feeling,
friends, you..
are the reason why i cry disconsolated...>:/

i'm useless..
what's wrong with me.
i dun wish to become the old me anymore.
if things turn out this way,
i've no choice but to accept.

2008-08-15T21:02:00.000-07:00

I'm awake nw..

kinda early, but CANT slp for any longer..

idoitic mattel

=.=

i do nt know what had happened exactly,

somehow, i have lots orhhchin on,

and ice skating the wounds getting worst,

wth wth wth
wth wth wth
wth wth wth

pain lah dey!

haii, probably becos too haevy ,fall down..

perhaps nth goes wrong

i also nv done any gross or whatever thing.

lastly,a very very big thank you and sorry to

JOTEX and her family..

谢谢你!♥

i did cried last night,

but i'm wondering?

when i crying, gt sound mah?!

huh...

i better go rest nw,

having breath difficultise..⊥

2008-08-12T07:48:00.000-07:00

F.U.C.K ing Group photo! EMO EMO MAN!!

DUNNO WHEN TAKE DE LE, BUT QUITE LONG AGO LE!

ps: alot yah! ;p

09.08.08

Today i'm packed with extivities narx!.
at first go the gu ma house,,'
sigh,
kinda bored,
even their hav a suoer cute de doggie,
but sad lah, he doen'st play with me lo...
haii, then their kids also lik doing their own stuffs,
bo bian, watching tv and zi lian lo..
keke,,
yah yah, aft that we went for a BBq event organised by my aunty,
at east coast park.
luckily hav car,: D
(human's good invantion and bad invantion also)
i enjoyed eating ther,
esp the man tou, the sweet patato, sweet corn!
but cant forget my lovely mushmellow lah dey !! :P
so bloody nice, but also bloody sweet,
i stil prefer the normal one narx!
then the cyclling session was great,
i enjoyed the cooling air down their.
hope next time wil go ther wif friends..
but somehow, east coast park makes me remind the past~..
hmmmm, mood swing...=/

kungfu cat sia

SIGH

simply bored!

GREAT MUSHMELLOW!

10.08.08

YO,

today celeb jessica birthday lah dey!

hehe.

she so cute lah bodoh..

anw, dumb me and jess wear skirt narx...=.=

but jess got teasted by feiyan.

said, wear until so exposed..

than jess onli can say she gt wear pants..

lame lah them..

yahyah, we went to ice skating..

tsk..

is so BLOODY hao bu hao !! -.-

bloody bloody bloody!

i sooooo regret nv wear loong pants..

is too late after i fall down narx..

oh my tian,

painful lah dey!

how come wil like this?

why?

ooqing plus blood cum swollen
TT cry lah me!

haii, then kind heart jess help me ask for plaster..

the uncle dun hav..

wth,

ther big big skating field no one had fall down meh?

can prepard FIRST AIDS box de right!

nv heard prevent better than blah blah narx..

it wil much much more convinent for me this kind of careless ppl lah..

okay, i'm jus CARELESS,

nt what okay,,

hmp!.

cant believ i fall down in continuerously lah..

the ppl behind als scared i fall down agn, giv me a helping hand..

then those cold blooded stil laugh at me..

i think uu know who i referring to hor!

damn rayson, yanzhi!!

and one pandi which was jessica friend..

"dun fall down agn le ahx, no plaster liao"

BAD RIGHT!

+_+

then later,

onli we 3 in the room sing k,'

although we sing until lik kisiao girls,

stil felt lonely,

how come lots lots ppl turn out 3 ppl le..

haii,

is okay,

we are strong to nt think abt it..!

then home sweet home...

PS: my knee lah dey...T.T

before~

see i sad liao >o<

the suprised was given by kerbe..

hmmm, mus say, jess was touched deep inside lah okay! ^^

after!
is much much much more purple in real life!
dun beliv come and see lah!!

11.08.08

12.08.08
today aft sch waited for jess that pandi,

then i wan go eat pepper lunch,

jess wanted to call her daddy,

in the end,

dumb us, take 154 to BOON LAY

when we inside the bus,

pepper lunch pop out..

=.=

okay..

forget it,,

we stil eat pepper lunch!

yahh, jingwei giv 3 stars to the ice peach tea narx!

nice..

but the salmon rice nt tht nice lah

so fishy..

errryer...

the highlight of today was we keep disiao wanyu lah,

so funny, la mi xiao xin..

jess and me really laugh almos til we fall,

hard to breath sia,,

waiting for bus lik mad ppl..

psps, nv take our medicine, was oos..(out of stock) hee

inside bus we start zi can,.

so crazy worx..

pain de hor!

today gt tok to him,

but iam jus simply sad...

haii..
sincerelly frm jingwei!

sorry if uu all dun unds what i'm toking abt,,

becos i think i'm over tired....

nw 3:30am le..

i wan sleep lah dey !! :<<<<<<<<<<<<

<失望还是假想>

2008-08-11T08:49:00.000-07:00

想笑来伪装掉下的眼泪..
为什么你要告诉我他有些许的失望..
does him??
full of 为什么 was in my head..
becos of her, uu..??
or, uu think of me??
OHHH, shut up.
stop dreaming!
mayb is mood swing agn..
will upload pics next time!:)

11.08.08.
i wont forget today!
大便,我爱你!

2008-08-08T06:36:00.000-07:00

♥

C

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N

A

08

08

08

嘿!
我是中国人!
我觉得庆幸和荣耀!

Fare well

2008-08-04T06:33:00.000-07:00

the past is the past alr.
no point to chase aft the past anymore...
i cried, and i promised is the last time alr..
jus let it be that i am strong enough to nt cry over it ba,
wy mus be strong okay!!!
to see through the past to rewind..
我舍不得
可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得只是该停了没有我你要好好的
至少你记忆里的我是微笑的亲爱的有你牵着我的那些日子真的好快乐
我舍不得
我们错过的错了就错了不用担心我我走了
fare well!

and nw, wil onli have the F.U.C.K.ing group alr..
F.....U.......C......K.....
dadadadada-first pitch.
dadadadada-secong pitch
dadadadada-highest pitch
F U C K..
fuckfuckfuckfuck..
muahahah, this is our theme song.. ^^

yes ... everything will be fine ... i told myself ...
yes ... i did cry for this few days ...
but from now on i will become stronger ...
i want the people who love me can be no worries ...
such as my family, SISTER, friends...
they were always beside me no matter what had happen ...
because of you guys ...
i will stand up ... and continue my life ...
i really don't know how to Expression to you all ...
but 一切尽在不言中.,..

i know ther wil hav ups and down...
happy and sad.
but i believ aft every sad moment wil hav a happy hour..
is enough alr..
i will prove it to everyone...
i will be fine ... now and forever ...

happy birthday to PL...

2008-07-27T02:43:00.000-07:00

SATURDAY IS A LOVELY♥ DAY

shud be veri down ytd de, but in the end, we hav a happy ending,
went out wif FEIYAN, JESSICA & WANYU, of cos MYSELF,
such a perfect grouping hor,,
do re mi fa..
giggles,
and als, i know the reason why you dun wan go out wif me le,
but that is okay, :}
i wont let it affect me anymore..
and i know i'm dumb, start the quarrelling,
idk how to grab the chance proberbly?!
hmmm, sorry, but i nv blame uu!
yeah, my lap top stil cant use as it cannt get connected ,,
>:
but finally i downloaded QQ, i guess when i bored, it can kill some time..
okay, back to ytd,,
wu fei yan finally get affected by US~!
she starting zi lian alr..XD
muahaha, she zilian around 50 lik that, and she said, the first time my handphone bo batt,,
muahaha, how funny is that..
btw, we dine in at SAKURA, eating buffet..
even their is alr veri noisy le,
but i think we are the noisyest..
and we 4 starting hua chi abt one guy,,
so bloody hilarious..
feiyan so thick face follow the guy take food twice sia,,
bad thing is that some one say something,
then wy tot is her,,
she cry,,
haiiyo, silly, dun think too much kay..
mus fel honoured to hav WE this kind of friend hor!
hmmmm, and then went home..
haha, wil load the photos when i free!! ;p

i'm totally dead, nv touch my homework at all,
and nv study for tmr home econ test.. x:
DIE!!/=

2008-07-21T05:44:00.000-07:00

Mummy is so bloody,
and family stuffs sucks,
i hate this feeling,
she nv know that every quarrel we had will make me sad,
proberbly she think i'm happy
pathetic and scarstic..
this feeling stinks..

2008-07-18T05:30:00.000-07:00

one thing to clearify,

everybody, unds what i'm talking abt the past 2 posts?!
they are all nt talking abt a guy/boy/man/or whatever..
so dun missundstood!

recently i'm staying at jurongeast,
yah, fun here,
but i nv studied at all.
sad sia..
&&&

today morning pandi and nadiah told me that i look pale,,
then took out choco mirror to see,
yes, i do look lik..
but sadly is the 2 tell me..
muahaha, stop emoemo,
yah, i love them luhs okay!!
^^

aft sch meet feiyan,

we dine in at pizza hut agn{:

and meet a super friendly stuff named LAVA!

lava veri hot ahx dey !

and feiyan eat my specially make for her de cookie.

muahaha,

so funny~

iloveher mann!!
anw, today the person,,
giv me wrong idea agn,
i'm clever enough to nt let myself in agn,
haiz, nt clever ,, dunno how to say,
mayb i'm jus being stupid agn?!
mayb i shud take the chance agn?!
did you try to do something?
or jus wanna play?
what shud i do?
lots lots photo~;p

my leader
my face is pinched =.=BLOODY! ;P
MY ART

safety in school

what a beautiful scen
WTfish, my skin is peeling off..X:

idk what to do

empty here TT !I BET YOU WIL LAUGH OVER HIM!

pizza pizza jingwei loves pizza C:

he is ren xing ing~ giggles

due to some reasons, i cried that night=/

what if dickie see this ... XD

jkjkjk the bed worth 3ooo bucks...

lol

APOLODY LETTER :{{{{{{{{{

ILOVESUNFLOWER

YOSH, i'm tired after all this ...;>

good night !

2008-07-14T19:57:00.000-07:00

bloody Bloody

BLoody BLOody

BLOOdy BLOODy

BLOODY

such a wonderful day..

the ..

accidently delete you,

hah, this is fate?!

yah., whatever.. : D

sorry..i say nt what i mean...

i still **** you..

2008-07-14T05:27:00.000-07:00

I'm more complicated than you think!
If you dun mean it,
Pls stop everythings.
Dun giv me any false thought or hope.
That's all... Good BYE!

2008-07-12T00:42:00.000-07:00

thought the feeling for you had slowly faded..
but i dunno i wil be so heart pain when i see ur face in the photo,
now, i can no longer see ur face closely like before le.
cant fel ur wen rou like before le..
yahyah, i know everything was i zi zuo duo qing..
stupid me jus cant stop thinking of you..

ytd had art feast,
hmmm, becos of timeline then i wan go de..
yeah, my expectation,they get first position..
nt bad yah! :>
i shouted alot man,
haha, luckily my voice stil ther..
okay, then went back wif shitake,
eating instant noodles,
i know uu onli trit me as a frend onli..
that's it..
uu dun mean anything also..
haiiz
anw, aft the concert, fel a bit down seh.
everytime lik this, aft movie also..
haha, dupid lah~!
lol, i know my blog is dead,, haiii,
nvm, i look myself ~: D

no more to get her le...

MSG IS DANGEROUS !

2008-07-10T21:24:00.000-07:00

nw my life is GREAT, supposed be..
i enjoyed every peaceful moment i had nw..
hope this wont change already,
anw, shitake, rainbow is stil ther, supposed be .. agn..
anything whatever...

MSG IS DANGEROUS !
yes, so am i!
enoki is dangerous,
everyone avoid me,
but i'm stil nutriunt..
yeah!
hahas~

2008-07-07T17:25:00.000-07:00

SIGH

the past flow up in mind

2008-07-04T04:33:00.000-07:00

post show soon~~ :D

hmmm, somehow, i nw at a dunno what computer shop,
becos the dinner nt ready yet,
then "nai nai" ask come here to play computer,
as she tot i'd like to play...
okay, thks her anw~

and somehow agn, i'm feeling odd agn,
mayb a lil bit close wif shitake, i say MAYBE.
ha, perhaps she bo bian always group wif me
then bo mian mus talk wif me..
sorry lah shitake..
good girl trusure ur jiejie...

er, wtf i talking sia,
nvm, i dun expect anyone reading it,
i always know that ppl always trit my words lik crap,
or mayb shud i say rubbish,
of cos no one wan read mine lah.. :>
so simply jingwei uu also dun unds.
go study more lah dey,!

going to jian fei on saturday or sunday,
reli fatfat le,
yeah, i know i always fat lah,,
i hav zi zhi zhi ming..=)
nw gonna to make everything di diao..
hmmm,
today morning, mayb is becos the weather,
the past flow up in mind..
so wth was that..
hope time wil pass asap,
i know wil be better in time,
even i know it's going to hurt when it heals too

hahas,
who wil giv me the magic chocolate to cure my sorrow?!
yo share end here,

bye jingwei

2008-06-30T19:37:00.000-07:00

fel happy aft hand in the card~ shiiiu~

MUCH MUCH RELIEF!!

hmmm, alot things happen uh..

share nt mention it~ ^^

NO MORE AHDEY!!

:DDDDDDDDDDD

2008-06-24T08:36:00.000-07:00

再也感觉不到你的温柔

装作漠不关心你

不愿想起你

怪自己没有勇气

-
我要控制我自己

不会让谁看见我哭泣

心痛得无法呼吸

找不到坚强的理由

SIGH!

2008-06-23T19:33:00.001-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
TO MY DEAREST DEAREST feiyan!!
i love you lots lots mann!!!
hope you enjoy today veri mush!!

XD hahas, uu nt eat chocochco luhs!

hmmmm, holidays so fast end le..
and i am stil nt ready for schooling...
mood swing badly..
i think is time to get a vacation ?
perhap wil go san san xin...
:{

2008-06-21T03:41:00.001-07:00

HOLIDAYS GOING TO BE REST IN PEACE!

爱上了不该爱的人,我的心中满是伤痕..

sadness jus come from the bottom of my heart!,
becos of him, i do alot sha shi,
i tot he would share his prob to me one day,
so i tried veri hard,
but it seem i was wrong, i was stil a younger sister to him!
i wanna grow up!
i am jus too immature too childish le!
yi hou! no more harming self , no more zi bao zi qi..
but why this world hav LOVE this thing!
i dun like ! :{{{
everytime is the same,
hated myself being so stupid so childish so immature!
:{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{
stil, i wish him the best,
hope he wil hav happiness in everyday of his life!
and yes! i love you!

the last things that i gave you~

this the silly old me doing de stuffs,nw,i wont do it anymore!

so, everybody dun trit me as a horrible person okay!

2008-06-14T08:20:00.001-07:00

你叫我不要付出无谓的代价,
可是此时的我已经不知道什么就无谓,
什么是有价值的了...,

find you on thursday, 2am
26 msgs in whole process,
1 reply,
uu sot, dangerous, nt worth find me...
YOU dun ned say a single words can mak me down to the bottom..
becos of YOU i cry everyday..
lik the old me right..
god damned!
SIGHH!
she is nw going through another heart broken~
but she mus be brave to face everythings!
becos angel is lost,
she mus cheer her ANGEL up↑
so she cant so easily get down by angel's action,
love you mus bao rong you!
yupp,
let's hope chocolate can cure your pain, your sorrow!

wil hav more chocolate!! :]

2008-06-11T02:53:00.001-07:00

马静薇 you are as dumb as ur name
you are so stupid
so idiotic
so siao

so baichi

he is nt the one for uu

his promises giv to another girl alr

can uu stop being so stupid ..

so ke xiao..

i've lost myself agn,,

i;m so blind to see everythings!

我倦了,累了..渴望拥抱.

却找不到

2008-06-10T22:56:00.001-07:00

Everybody!!
I'MBORED

2008-06-10T00:07:00.001-07:00

Lots photo to be upload

shaozhu~

kungfu panda is loved

my new glasses luhs ..hahas

hoho~ they say look like DOLL~ i high ~

eating steampot at vivo with yx and wy

i'm cold so i use my new brought jeans to cover myself .. XD

i jus simply love sunflower!!

FEEBLE jingwei nv eat for 3 days!

FINALLY!
i'm eating shitake nw ..
wakakaka!!

anw , i change my skin le ..
fel too uncomfortable about the old one le ..
so , ppl do tag me more eh ... (^^)V
haizhaiz..

I'm pissed off by_..
no movie no movie luhs ..
forget it !'
but somehow stil fel lik contacting _..
wth, what's wrong wif me ... :{{{{{{{

after 5mins..

SIGH,
i did call _.
he sound so sleepy luhs ..
"uu sleeping ahx"
"wo hen lei"
okay lah, uu lei uu rest!
but uu stil dua me!
CHEAT MY FEELING..
:{{{{{{{{
JINGWEI IS UNHAPPY ! :{
roaw!
bit bit bit you !!!

2008-06-07T15:10:00.001-07:00

ppl, nw is 7:3oam in the morning !

and i haven't close my eyes for a second !

is lik omg luhs,i edit one skin use around 4 to 5 hours~

laughs.

gonna change later .. hahas..

and i guess also wont change agn for sometimes ba .
anw, today no work !

cheers !

that's also the reason why i can stay til dawn to come ..:D

hmmm, kind hav seriously moodswing agn ..

wth.

2008-05-31T01:56:00.001-07:00

who can chat with me ...
:{{{{{{
我..无聊..,
uu wan lose weight , uu mus pay !
and my pay is nt work for one weeks ..

that's why i am bored !!
haiz..

...减肥减肥!!...减肥减肥!!

2008-05-22T20:03:00.001-07:00

有没有人是永远不变的？！
我想和他,她,它做朋友...
i hav the question , wher is th ans /:

why everyone like to change,

i know is true and i mus accept it ..

what can i do to make ppl nt to change,

i fel empty.

i'm scared of losing anyone agn ..

i dun wan everythings gone lik my ******..

is horrible .. but i hav to face it..

it hurts!

i wan preserve everythings i had nw ..

can i ?

也许曾经我没有珍惜,

我不知道他会那么决心.

爷爷的事让我难过伤心很多.

这样还代表我不在乎吗?

好像全都是我的错..

你也越来越讨厌我了吧..

对你来说...我

只是不成熟,幼稚的小妹妹..

怎样才能证明给你看..?

我有机会证明给你看嘛?

我真的不能再这么的依赖你了..

你是天使.是我最初和最后的天堂..

2008-05-19T05:57:00.001-07:00

OH MY TOOT GOD!

MY BABY IS LEAVING TOMOR !

HEY! YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I AM GOING TO MISS YOU!

:{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{

TODAY went her house play aft shopping wif her at jp,

she ned buy present for her lover.

the present is CHOCOLATE !

HEHE..

so sweet uh , but i bet their love is see light die la ..

no matter what you've gt me !! ^^

i wil waiting for you de !

fast come back la kays

pls

hehe!~

okay, no present no see me ahx ..

jkjk,

i think i am going to fetch uu when uu come back la ~~

so uu also wait for me kay !

and today i get jealous becos of shao zhu luhs

taoyan !

hmmm.lastly , the frontier de sakae nt nice !

their makimono look sooooo ugly..

westmall the best ^^ V

question time ! guess what is that !!

uu think is black long shirt ba ..

nana ~~ wrong ! is his hair ~

i guess if my hair is lik tat uu all wont fel lik hold my arm ba ..

woops , sorry poor man ~ :x

eating subway i heart break luhs :{

the sunblock i brought .. i am super LAZY , so i choose the spray one ! XD
YAYA, this is feiyan w/o glasses ! see how power i am kay !!

inspire her buy contact lense ~

call me hero !!

miahaha !

tou pai ahx .. haha ...

nt forget to say , i hav my POSB card alr ..

super duper high la dey !

and today i deposite 20 bucks onli , see i so guai ~~

feiyanfeiyan !!
BE CAREFUL ! I SPRAY YOU LUHS .. YES ! IS YOU !!

2008-05-15T00:50:00.001-07:00

那只是我的藉口~

i dun wish to coming ,

so odd .

i know i'm bad ..

i'm sorry !

2008-05-14T13:14:00.001-07:00

哪一个才是真实的自我

LAST FRIDAY

can see my tears ?! uh uh >:

it was a tough day for me ya ~

SATURDAY?!

the day befor mothers day :}

this dumb yought cost me 5 bucks , i think exp nia ~
and i spent alot today :{{{{{{

SUNDAY

went out wif linda and wy to "study" =.=

EVERYONE VIEWED MY BLOG , MUST TELL ME CAN YOU ALL SEE WAN YU WAS BEHIND?!

the disgusting ice cream + coke .. eeeeek !

you cant imagine how disqusting it is ,

wanna try then go ahead :/she stil giv me this kind of look ~~ :{ yao si ahx !!

the 2 crminer !

wy kep eating that eeeek stuff , while linda peh is doing her hair , then guess what !

she then took my phone start zi lian !

ownself put this photo as wall paper luhs ~~ D:

number 2 pukeable person is nt playplay one ahx ! ^^

say me handsome, everybody !
and ask my number ahx XD

befor this bloody bastard leave , we took photos ~

FORGET WHEN LE ~
was at library study wif jess and sm , but jess that pig slp all the way la !

2008-05-13T20:14:00.001-07:00

today i realised somethings ..
we seem close , but what we are doing all is the outsid stuffs,
wher is the heart ,
i feel lik i'm facing a stranger ...

2008-05-09T13:35:00.001-07:00

today , i know i, 马静薇 gonna to miss something ..
but why so zhun ! i dun wan but i mus accept .
我始终过不了她这一关..
everything nt as simply as we think ,
this world gt too many unexpected .
nw i face the one !
i dun even hav the courage to call you alr !! is you !!!
why is you ! why !

她们说会永远不变..
"你信吗?'
"信"
"那你就准备受伤把"
我会害怕..为什么..
心好象跟全世界的轨道,脱截了..

我不是新加坡人,i'm jus a cheena which everyone hated !!
i think too high on myself le , 我只适合属于我的人生,和我一样的人.
when wil all these hav a end ...
I guess i can only pretend that you don't exist ,
and carry on with my life .
good luck to you :}

2008-05-08T06:53:00.000-07:00

为你付出那些伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切

dun fel lik typing and elaborated what i hav being so far ..
im totally exhausted !

LIBRARY STUDYING SESSION WIF TEE SU MIN MY RAINBOW NT RAIN OR CHEAST HAIR AHXX !
alllright , im try to use word to entertain uu all .
1 2
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1:SHAO ZHU, rmb i wil keep turning uu till the veri brownish and crispy de ! uu mus nt forget to polished zhen zhu als !! rmb ytd !! I AI NI ! btw , anybody out ther mus be careful worx . linda is 爱情骗子 . me and pl and lots lots victim als ganna .. uu all know that to do liao right !! i dun mind uu all de thks de ~
2:my first sooooo big pimples ever in my life ! wth
3: she look pretty in this photo right ! i mean tsm , nt me ahx ~ XD
4: i found it veri gt feel ~
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1:this spec cant wear in sch rrrr !!
2: im doing chicken quan to her ~
3:she look gorela right ! dunno how to spell ! andand look aat my hair , is lik omf brown luhs dey ! call me ahh mooo~

SOMEHOW , I FOUND MYSELF SO EASY GET MOODSWING ..
and mayb i born to be hav entertaining skills ba .,. so nomatter how tired i am ,'
i stil can "play"
is a bless frm the god , or the curse frm the devil ..
perhaps is bless ..
and ms heng ! i wil prove to you one day , im nt as happy or noisy or childish or act or whatever to you !
im jus trying to make myself hippy by doing all those ...
errr , mayb im nt a entertainer at all . i'm jus make a ass out of you and me !
eyyy ! i stil type so long ~ 11I11~

2008-05-05T00:13:00.000-07:00

K is forever K ,

nth gonna change until the day it fade away..

LAST FRIDAY ~

had chinese paper ..

but i totally so nt in mood luhs , aft nt slp for whole night ,

i feel so anxious over nth .. =.=

wth .. i think done badly lorx ,

linxin tat pandi cmf get first as he alw so confident ~ROAW!

andand , recess i'm all alone .. my onli one friend was the drink MILO ~

let me introduce to you !!

hello everyone , my name is milo , age is confidencial , of cos male . i hav mani girlfriend as i veri flirt ~ ^^wanna be my friend ?! call 62353535~ laughs

milo milo dirty fellow XD

i was like so emo mann!!

SATURDAY

friday ton at PL house , then plan to go out walkwalk and shopshop one , but due to some reason nv go le .then was bo liao at home ..called feiyan ~(my darling )wanted to go her house "study".she say today she going for buffet.ask me join ,,then i was lik NONO in the first place. becos no money,call mama for spon me , but end wif a fight luhs :{ okok .. i stil gt go luhsis like omg far, ned transfer 2 buses and of cos the mrt !finally reached le ..i was shock can ..the buffet ..is SAKURA !!.I WAS LIKE WHAT THE TOOT LA~travel so far jus for sakura buffet .. =.=

JE als hav , somemor the JW stadium als hav .. ROaWW!!

dun angry ~ food more important ~

their reli gt alot food ~

恋空~

a japeness sch student play bang qiu ~

this one is lik fish egg , but dunno why is in black

the first photo wif her , i bet wil hav alot when time pass by

and finally was TODAY ~

so waste going sch luhs ,

but gt to see my fellow friends ,

i stil happy la.

then suprisingly,my shao zhu giv me the letter that she say loong time alr

but when i read it ..

fel #^%#&$^

tan yan , mus giv her more my mann ~

if you see mus accept it hor!

then a big thk to see zuo en and jessica ong ting en !

they mus da han my madnesshaii,

anw i'm emo ..emo .. so emo..

loll.

today first day nv talk to _.

haiz , whatever!

nw i'm view _ blog agn ..

i fel depressed !

:{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{

2008-05-01T14:14:00.000-07:00

i dun hav any funny photo sia .. butbut ,,
hehe , i gt video ~~
muahaha ~~

they 2 were fighting for go eat subway ..
so funny can .. XD

DUN KILL ME WORX ~~ HAHA

2008-05-01T11:07:00.000-07:00

ROAW ~ ytd go out wif shitake pal and babyasshole ... wow man ~~
haha~
is fun man .. but im moodswing here cos somethings .
thats the reason i stil nv turn to sleep thought tmr stil hav exam !
anw , we took alot zi lian pics narx ..uu can see from pl or xm blog
that HPL dead le la ..dare to my ugly photo uh .. fuacker ~~ laughs
ARE YOU GUYS REALLY TO PUKE ?!
muahahaha~ JOKING K ~
This lollipop gana PL bites lorx

I onli hav mickey this friend :{
I alr said i nt rely on her right ! what i do to make you think that way ..
why doubt on my words.what the fuck
do you ever know that wil gonna hurt me .
nw uu then believ .. i see no trust at all man !
YIHOU no more doubting , believ me anot is jus up to whoever ther .
once agn , you make me sad , shi wang ..

At chamelon zilians

we shud put down all the things that we are cared abt ..我们应该放下现在所在乎的一切
but we jus cant so sa tuo,
if sa tuo le , als you hao you huai ~ but jus no ren qing wei le ~

whoever out ther, dun you fel sad .. is lik all the friends are just like better classmates nw..
how pathetic that is .. how heartbreak that is ..
somehow MISS the past *shit man* miss the excess rely on each others time *da bian women*
人总是在失去过后才知道曾经拥有的美好

are all this crap jus my another duo chou shan gan uh ?

如果一开口变成了结局

2008-04-26T10:48:00.000-07:00

as for someone bhber wish ,
i shall post lorx ..
andand she liks tis colours luhx ..
so lame can .. laughs ,
but lamer the merrier .. lol ..

如果一开口变成了结局

2008-04-26T08:22:00.000-07:00

如果你不曾出现，
我会不会觉得快乐一些

what the use faking those smile ..
is tiring !
and why i'm here stil laughing for no reason ~!

i misses RAIN time ,
i misses the cheasthair stuff ..
:c
i misses primary sch time .. i misses that nt innocent but innocent de me ..

2008-04-16T23:16:00.000-07:00

i'm totally bored by school ..
then do alot funny things in class ..
lol ..
nth much to say ..

EVERYBODY PASS ME THE SICKNESS AND I WAN SICKK !!

to dear bacterials :
come to jiejie ba .. jiejie wil trit uu nice nice de k ..
laughs ~~

2008-04-11T06:13:00.001-07:00

A eye blink cnt forever catch the high frenquent of a heart change

DEAREST

2008-04-11T04:25:00.000-07:00

xiu *blow air*
is such a long post~~
to the few ppl who read it .. mus gu li wo uh !
so long nia ,, laughs !!

today sch was bored ! and somehow lik wasting my time ..
i dunno why , but aft one day nt coming sch ...
i fel alot different .. alot things changed ..
EVERYTHING SEEM SO MO SHENG !!
what the tooot ! laughs , dun tok those stuff le ~
what shud be hippy de is da lao po --- ying xuan finally come to sch le ..
see i so power .. i come she come .. laughs !
anw , do take care of ur shen ti uh ,, ^^

and during ART lesson (mr goh nagging session --#)
shao zhu approach to me !! :D
how lucky that is huh .. laughs !
even she said she dunno what to say nia ~
i stil appretiate it much <3

today my tian shi left one day ke .. how toot he is uh ..
w/o a goodby the fly away le ~ mak me angry narx ={
hmmm , ytd had hard time by thinking of sms or nt sms ..
in the end , i could nt bend down my pride ..
good desicion or bad .. jus let it be ,,

er heng er heng !! announcement to everyone in this planet and my hometown PLUTO ppl !! laughs ~
at the date of 09.04.08

PLLL - peh linda ling becom shao zhu of jing wei de !!
and MJW - ma jing wei becom steam pork of linda !
steam pork better uh ~ is pearl lehx ,, muahaha !!

hope our words are FOREVER ! and hope my shao zhu wil turn to tis dumb steam pork whenever she needed !! NO PLAYPLAY DE !! LAUGHS ~
haiz , everythings seems so fine ..
how glad was that ..
wnt fade away so soon uh ,,, laughs~

2008-04-07T05:13:00.000-07:00

Today i realised tat i lost all my photo data in handphone ..
the dumb computer ! the dump handphone !

T.T my Precious MOMENT !!
WHAT THE TOOOT !!!

so down and depress can ..

the long long hair .. the curl hair .. and the enoki hair ~~

sob sob !!

haiz ,,
ATTENTION To EVERYBODY !! ~
~do take more pics wif me luhx .!!

to bu chang my memory ~~ D:

:{{{{{{{

2008-03-18T19:35:00.000-07:00

haiz haiz ~~~
i cut my hair ..
nw lik mushroom lik tat norx ..
some kind lik ENOKI //
which is the needle mushroom .. =='
hmmmm .. nvm .. ppl say okay ... andand it wil stil grow ~~haha

lol

sooo sleepy today ..
haixx .. wanted fri , sat off .. then mus everyday work nia ~~
sigh ..
but anw .. nt gonna to go anywher on sat ba ...

yuppp .. that's all narx ,,,
byebye !~

2007-12-13T04:44:00.000-08:00

i am so cooooold luhx ...
fingers all lik chopstick lik tat ..
haha .. but this feeling is quite good luhx ..
so long since i fel it again le ..
hahaha ..

but i miss the ppl in singapore luhx ..
exp SAKAE SUSHI de la ..
andand i miss ta luhx .. haha ..
haiix ,, gt ppl miss mii or nt ahx ..?!
i think no ba .. haiix .. * sad *+* sighs*
nth to say le\\\\\\\\
i still don get why nw i know de ppl all say me 幼稚 and 笨蛋 ne ？
AM I ?? LOL~

HOPE GT PPL MISS ME LUHX ~~~!!!!!

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2007-09-12T01:50:00.000-07:00

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小雨含着泪在课桌上写下了我是小雨我爱你你爱我吗? - ° *

2007-09-05T09:49:00.000-07:00

You are Death

Change, Transformation, Alteration.

People fear this card, but if you want to change your life, this is one of the
best indicators for it. Whatever happens, life will be different. Yes, the Death card can signal a death in the right circumstances (a question about a very sick or old relative, for example), but unlike its dramatic presentation in the movies, the Death card is far more likely to signal transformation, passage, change. Scorpio, the sign of this card, has three forms: scorpion, serpent, eagle. The Death card indicates this transition from lower to higher to highest. This is a card of humility, and it may mean you have been brought low, but only so that you can then go higher than ever before. Death "humbles" all, but it also "exults." Always keep in mind that on this card of darkness there is featured a sunrise as well. You could be ready for a change.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

DEATH...i don afried uu...but how to change...
nw i sad ...the card..the DEATH r jus match to mii..
n today i first time cook...but d onli 1 n first 1 i wanna tel de you shi her...

BUT TODAY HER CHANGE LE...TOK TO MII NICE LE..HAHA.shi tong qing wo mahx?? 1 mor thing ned to mention...i jus found d..
I MUS SAY SORRY TO YOU...I LIK UU IS ALL DIISTURBING UU... SORRY..SORRY..I HATE MIISELF...

2007-09-03T04:09:00.000-07:00

....5555...
tomor gt el exam...
mammy~~i don wanna fail it..
i stil wanna be in mii lovely class!!
mii lovely classmates...eyy..somekind of e xin la..
wahaha...don care..jus wanna stay at tis lovely but also eyy de express class la~~..
later gonna to study the format of the letter things...
but i think even i go memorise it,,tomor wil stil surely hav mistake de lorx..
haiix...zen me ban~~!!

can i hav a super brain ?! GOD reply: Cant!!cos i giv the best 1 to ALBERT EINSTEIN'' ( i onli know is albert wat wat lorx...then i go check dictionary..lol)
can i hav do la A meng... GOD reply: NO .NO .NO..onli hav one..n i gav it to da xiong le..hohoho
scratch mii head think...wahaha...
Can i eat the paper then jiu can memorise the things on it le mahx...
i so clever !!
GOD reply mii the F word... %^$*%@$!NS )*&

..I'M I LAME ?!
haha~~
i dono y i suddenly wan write tat lorx..i nut le ba..

21:43...im sad nw.. :{